Life

[ironphoenix]

Life? Is awesome.

The past weeks have been extraordinarily intense, and mostly in a good way. Work is busy, of course, but it's much bigger, and better, than that.

soul_diaspora and I have been exploring new sides of ourselves and our relationship, and that's been terrific. She's leaping out in several directions at once, including LJ-land (although I think most of her stuff is still flocked). I've had more new experiences, spiritual and otherwise, in the past few months than in any similar period over the preceding 5 years.

I'm realizing now that since terminating the PhD, I am showing a lot less signs of stress, and that's coming out in a very intense social life. To you folks I've been spending time with over the past few weeks, thank you! It's been amazing, and shows promise of keeping on in that vein. (I'm running out of synonyms for "great" here...)

(Also, to you folks I haven't been spending that time with: poke me if you want me to spend time with you; I certainly don't mean to leave anyone out. I've simply been following somewhat of a path of least resistance, and spending time with the people who make it plain that they want to spend time with me, and participate in creating opportunities to do so.)

Yes, I know I'm not being long on specifics here; I may put up a flocked/filtered post with more details, though. (The fact that that's the case may give the curious some clues, but if you don't already know, you'll likely have to ask!) One thing I'm actively working on is being more open and sharing more personal things about myself, so that would be a part of it. It's something I've been a bit reluctant about until now, and a number of events and people lately have synchronistically led me towards breaking out of that habit. I think it's a coping strategy that has outlived its usefulness, since I don't have to be quite as terrified of hurting the people around me with my wants and needs as I once did (or thought I did, at any rate).

Again, to all of you who've been close to me and to soul_diaspora over the recent little while, thank you again, very much. (If you have to wonder to yourself whether you're included in that group, then you probably are. If you are soul_diaspora, then you're at the heart of that group!) It's not often that I've felt this happy and at ease, and a lot of it is due to you.

Comments

[iclysdale.livejournal.com]

Consider M. and I as officially being in the category of people who would like to spend more time with you -- although I don't think we're likely to be able to arrange anything before Canada Day week-end, and I'm looking forward to seeing you then... But we'll poke you more, going forward.

[zenten.livejournal.com]

I would like to hang out with you more.

[beable]

I can haz theories bwahahahahaha *cackles*

Ok actually since prying into other people's lives is not actually one of my hobbies (unless they initiate the discussion) than I'll leave the theories cackling at that, and address the more important point of


hanging out! is good! especially if it includes gaming!

But I am often a socializer of least resistance too, so other than the epic fails con_girl and I have been making to see Indiana Jones, I have not particularly been organizing much. (Speaking of which we have had two failed attempts to see it the past two Tuesdays. I believe we testing the third time pays for all theory this Tuesday if you are interested)

[ilanikhan.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad to hear that you're happy :)

I look forward to hearing details...I think I want to reserve an evening for your to talk while I stay mute.

[xiphia.livejournal.com]

I've been greatly enjoying getting to know both you and soul_diaspora. Consider yourself(ves) poked. :)

[ziggy-b.livejournal.com]

I am glad to hear that you are happy. You were carrying around baggage for too long, and as someone who did the same for a year (although it was easier, having mostly written my thesis by the time I got full-time contract work) it is nearly impossible to do both. You chose the best path, in my opinion :)

For obvious reasons I won't be able to hang out with you this year, but with any luck I will run into you on the bus some morning and we can catch up...

[jagash.livejournal.com]

Glad that things are going so very well for you, I am quite happy for you. I would also be quite interested in socialization, once I am back in the same province as yourself.

[squireofmichael.livejournal.com]

Wow! Happiness! For you!

I'm blessed to know you, even if only through the intarwebs.